Dear blog, it's been years since I've poured myself to you. It's been a crazy 3 years for me. I started to isolate myself again. Keeping myself to me alone. Pushing people away. Well, I have the tendency to make people drift away by themselves. Building a shield around me, hiding my own vulnerability that has always dispute me as a person. I can't be depended on people. It's for better or worse. Now it's just me by myself trying to rectify and re-construct the person in me, I am a mess. An array of thoughts is running through my mind. InShaAllah I'll be writing more after this, just maybe.