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perbualan di dalam alam maya

aku mahu 'present' hari jadi aku
apa kau mahu?
sebuah lagu tentang hidup aku,
ceritakan!

aku tersuka,
pada orang yang tiada,
aku terjatuh cinta,
pada orang yang tiada

"stop!"
kau tahu ape hukum mencintai orang yang dah tak ada!?
tak tahu aku!
aku pon tak tahu!wahaha!

aku termimpi tentang dia,
aku terbayang wajah dia,
aku terjumpa dia dalam mimpi,
aku ternampak kelibat dia dalam mimpi,

"ish ish ish"
kes kau ni teruk!
ni namanya metafora!
kau tahu apa itu?

tak!
macam kau ada dekat padang pasir,
kejar benda depan mata kau nampak,
makin kau kejar makin ia menghilang

botak "Say's"
hidup ni macam bulatan...
kite start,
then corner baring sikit,
then willy sikit, pecut sikit,
sampai lee kite ke tempat asal balik...

sara pulang ke rahmatullah, meninggalkan tulisan-tulisan kisah hidup dia..

hmmm... apa aku merepek ni...???
apa-apa pon, struggle for life.

kehidupan tiada dunia fantasi?
kecuali realiti dan maya,
kehidupan tiada dunia fantasi?
kembalikan aku kepada realiti

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the clock shows 5.56 pm.
can't sleep yet.maybe later i'll take a good looong nice slumber.
so i surf the net.untuk lebih jelas.i justed visited arwah's deviantART.
look trough her photo album.she's a really really talented girl.sambil asyik melihat photo-photo yang di snap oleh arwah,dalam masa yang sama i mendengar lagu 'tunjukkan aku' by Boneca.then my eyes started to collecting tears.by looking at all of her photo makes me sad knowing that she's already at the other side.hmm...Allah know's better.

then google-ed out more about her.walaupun selepas pemergiannye.she still touched others.

dear sara,you are a special.you have a pure soul.you are an angel.god do loves you more.

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Dedicated For Those Who Fought Cancer

Simple Plan - Save You



Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
It's drowning into whispers
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oooh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (ohh)

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Thank You

Hadi - Pengecat Bintang

today?(desember 3,2008)
hmm...woke up at 12.then troz surf net.

thanx arwah sara aziz.
u really2 change me.
n terima kasih hadi-pegecat bintang.
blog post ko bnyk sedar kan aq yg tak gune kite hidup klu tak berbakti kepada
ALLAH.
so alhamdulillah sekarang aq dh tak tinggal solat.cume timing aq kene improve lagi.hehe

Hadi - bile nak jam lagi?

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Touched By An Angel

hye!woke up at 1.10 pm.troz bwt laundry.get a long nice shower.
then troz trpacak depan pc ni.i've kinda sleep late last night.after suboh bru went slumber in wonderland.
bcoz last night i usha2 dslr stuff on the net.
found what i want.

owh!last night i did a surf around the net about arwah sara
now i know that im not the only one touched by her,theres many more out there
she's an angel
and we've been touched by an angel

and i found this
it's from arwah sara's pak long

Tuan/puan yg. dikasehi semua dan dirahmati Allah SAW, Arwah Wan Maisara Amira meniggal dunia kerana penyakit kancer paru-paru. Penyakit ini mula dikesan pada bulan Mac tahun ini ketika beliau sering mengalami batuk-batuk semasa di Melbourne . Pada jangkaan awal, beliau mengalami sakit TB, tetapi setelah dibuat rawatan lanjut, beliau disahkan mengidap penyakit barah paru-paru yg. dah sampai tahap 3 (3rd. Stage lung cancer). Berbagai usaha telah dilakukan oleh ibunya untuk mendapat rawatan yg. terbaik, tetapi tidak berjaya. Sememangnya kalau seseorang tu dah mengidap penyakit cancer tahap 3 ni, memang peluang untuk survive amat tipis sekali. Sejak bulan Mei lalu, arwah ini selalu saja keluar/masuk hospital untuk memdapatkan rawatan-rawatan spt. chemoterapy dan lain-lain sehingga kesatu tahap sejak 3 bulan lalu beliau terpaksa menggunakan alat bantuan gas oxygen untuk membolehkanya bernafas setiap masa. tubuhnya pula makin mengecil dan sentiasa berasa lemah setiap masa. Bagitulah kesengsaraan yg. dialaminya sehingga menghembuskan nafas terakhir pada jam 09.21 malam di hospital Damansar Specialist Centre, Damasara. Jenazah beliau selamt disemadikan ditanah perkuburan Bkt. Kiara pada jam 12.20 tgh. pada 20 Oktober 2008 (Isnin). Diucapkan jutaan terima kasih kpd. tuan/puan semua yg. telah sudi menghantarkan ucapan-ucapan takziah dan menhadiahkan bacaan Al-Fatihah kpd. roh arwahMaisara. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama roh-roh orang yg. beriman. Al Fatihah. Drp. Loqman (Pak long Maisara) Dan Keluarga Maisara.

Mon 27-Oct-2008 16:46Posted by:Loqman loqman.me@tnb.com.my


knowing that she's in a better place right now
and she's with Allah
just makes me smiled

she will be loved...

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IN LOVING MEMORY OF SARA AZIZ

22/04/1988-19/10/2008

as i godek-ing my myspace page.suddenly this bulletin entry just caught my eyes "al-fatihah buat arwah sara aziz".at first i was hmm....(no respon).but tibe2 tergerak hati utk bukak.so i click the link to her blog at the bulletin posted.so from there on started my obsession on her.

i've read every single of her post entry from the start to the end.i get really sad reading at it and cant help but cry. at the age of 20 i just could'nt belive that she's really2 strong facing the greatest test from Allah...she had lung canser stage 3 at that age.

this is one of her post

"I have nobody close to me to be my heroes to look up to in my recovery process,
because they succumbed to cancer.
i lost my grandparents to it.
i understand if they didnt have enough motivation to continue life, to fight cancer.
they've had and achieved everything in their lives.

but me,i'm 20! ive achieved, NOTHING at all in my life.
i know i still have a long way to go ,
and i wont give up until i win this.
i'm not born a quitter, and i have my reasons to continue this life.


i'm diagnosed with stage 3b lung cancer,
with very little chance of living


BUT WHO CARES WHAT STAGE IM IN and what percentage i have left!
you're not God, dont make easy assumptions predecting my lifespan.


i can easily say that,my biggest inspiration comes from Lance Armstrong.
the cancer he went through actually made him a stronger person.
made him a 7 times champion of le tour de france.
crazy.


that's why i love athletes, esp cyclists, pro cyclists.
They're the strongest people that cycle up to 250+ kms, for hours,
endured the pain as if it's just a small bruise, when their shorts are torn and the fresh red flesh is flashing,
ignored their cramped muscles to make it to the finishing line.
not only they're physically strong, they're mentally strong.i couldnt find any sports that has the same beauty as cycling

one thing that i know is,she is a really talented girl in photography.you can see her art work at her flickr and deviantart.she even joined the Rantai Art Festival 2007.and one of her photo are publishw in National Geographic.

tonight is the 40th night she had been in the other side.but it's still hard for me to accept that she's gone.i wish i could known her earlyear.

you're a giveted soul.you're special.you've inspired me.you've touched me.I'm a changed person because of u sara, I am living life better now . I will owe all of my acheivements to you because you have given me so much drive.

you fought to survive,
but yet Allah loved you more,
you are a kind soul and He will be kind to you,

semoga roh sara di cucuri rahmat dan di tempatkan bersama kekasih Allah
AL-fatihah

to the lychee's
do stay strong girls
she deserve much more then this life
now she's in a better place

my life and art work inspired by her's

links to her

xanga site
blogspot
flickr
devianart

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you are special

so...hmm...today?
owh!ep called's woke me kinda early.10.30 am.hehe.awl ke?
so showered for a while.
i just cant stop thinking of her.
hmm...owh did i told you that last night i already finished reading her blog.
i just could'nt stop crying.she's special.she's truly a gifftes soul.

semoga Allah mecucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.
Amin

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23/11 kinda boring day

like yesterday
i just stayed home the whole day
surf the net
myspacing,cmnting and reading blogs

i've read arwah sara aziz blog but not yet done.now im at march 21,2006 entry.
much long way to go.im taking a break for a while.myb sambong tonight.
the more i read about her,the more i fell in love to her.
n her art work...it can't be describe in words.
so stuningly artitsticlyboombastic!

n too bee,
take good care of ur self k.don't say that i did'nt warn u.
n when the times comes i don't wanna be the 1 that say i told u so
but how i wish i could.hehe

i'll update later.
much love ya'll!

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